Five weeks into my commitment to go gray. Tomorrow would be my normal hair coloring appointment day. I canceled the appointment a couple of weeks ago because I didn’t want any temptations to back out when this day arrived. The commitment from this point forward will be more noticeable to others. Today, I’m wearing the look of “she’s probably going heading to the hairdresser soon.”
My hair is growing in more salt and pepper like than I had imagined it would. I’ve had dark hair for so long it has protected my scalp from sunlight. My scalp is pretty fair color. Good graycious, I think it accentuates the light gray hair. I’m excited to see what it looks like after the next 5 weeks. Despite my excitement about the next phase, the emotional battles come and go depending on who I’m with or where I am or have to go.
Let’s do an emotional battle check-in. What emotional battles am I feeling? A bit of stomach sickness (oy…am I really doing this?), some sadness (I’m going to miss my normal dark hair and I’ll miss the conversations with my hairdresser), isolation (no one really knows that I’m doing this except for my family), shame (people may judge me), and fear (all of the above). How am I overcoming all of the emotional battles?
- I’ve been taking a closer look at the roots of my head. Before when I knew I would be going in for coloring, I quickly brushed away thoughts about the difference between my colored hair and the outgrowth. Now I’m curious about what it is going to look like. The anticipation of the future is exciting.
- I’ve been focusing on being comfortable with the outgrowth. I feel pretty confident when there are other people around with gray hair. When the crowd doesn’t have anyone with gray hair (or colored gray hair), the emotional battles kick in. Making sure makeup, hairstyle and clothing all look great is very important!
- I’m working on responses for what I’m going to say when people ask me, “What’s the scoop, taking a break from the hairdresser eh?” Mostly, I think I’ll just be graycious and listen to their perspectives.
Confidence is silent. Insecurities are loud.
Confidence Boosters
- What you think of yourself is much more important than what people think of you.
- To those who said I can’t do it, well, watch me.
- Confidence is the sexiest thing a woman can wear.
- Self-confidence is the best outfit, rock it and own it.
- The best accessory a girl can own is confidence.
As Bob Marley says, “every little thing is gonna be alright”. Good graycious, every little gray hair is gonna be alright! What do you do for confidence building? I’d love to hear your tips!
